Story from the past - Denial!

When I was looking at pictures from when I was heavy. I looked and thought wow I never saw myself like that. My husband looked at the picture and said "where did you find that picture. I never saw you like that".  All this got me thinking. I remembered a time when I went clothes shopping. I tried on an outfit and looked in the mirror. I was like holy cow that is not me. There is something wrong with this mirror. It makes you look so much bigger then what you are. I walked out of that store and didn't buy anything. I even remember telling people how ridiculous it was to have mirrors in the store that make you look bigger because who would want to buy clothes like that. Now that I look back. I couldn't of been in any greater denial. How would I of done something about my weight when I didn't even realize I was heavy. Nobody around me wanted to tell me. Everybody just said you are beautiful just the way you are. That's how we are as a society. Its rude to tell someone they are fat. Now if someone had told me I was fat I would of been like your very rude. So really you can't win. How do you fight denial?  How does someone come to the realization that they need to loose weight and how do you get motivated to do so?

Education in Progress!

Today I registered for classes for my sports management program at Cal u (California University of Pennsylvania)! Its an online program that prepares you to take the National Academy of Sports Medicine (NASM) certification exam.  When I am done in 2 years I will have my bachelor degree and be a certified trainer. It will be a great addition to my nursing and I am looking forward to being able to help others change their life. I am so excited for the future. A little nervous because I will for sure have my hands full but I know I can do it!

Dariotis Memorial Competition.....1st Weightlifting Meet of 2011

This past Saturday I competed in another weightlifting competition. I have been working extremely hard at my lifts 5 to 6 days a week. I am getting more consistent at the lighter weights. I have been reading up on improving my mental game and what other lifters do. This is the first competition that I feel very proud of myself for. I made improvements in my technique and mental game. Improved my lifting total slightly but trying to remind myself all the time that its not the number that matters right now. Its how I perform. I made 2 out of 3 lifts on the snatch and clean and jerk. I also didn't cry or get upset when I did miss a lift. My previous competition I was so upset and started crying in front of everybody. Kinda embarrassing but I guess these things happen. This competition I listened to music and really didn't even think about being at a competition. Worked wonders for that performance anxiety I get. My goal is to be the best lifter I can be. I am willing to put the time and dedication into this and see where it takes me. I am very happy and having a great time. Looking forward to what the future brings!

 

 

Warm up

Warm up

Clean

Clean and Jerk Finish

Snatch

Welcome 2011!

I haven't been very good at all about writing on my blog. It seems I have so many goals and plans its very difficult to keep up with all of them. But this blog, the story and transformation of my life is so very important to me.  I ultimately have another path of my life I am trying to take. I want to be an athlete and help inspire others to follow there dreams and believe that they too can transform their life and bodies.

My Goals for 2011.....Improve my olympic lifting total and gain consistency, Start my sports management bachelor degree program, Buy a house, Continue to be as healthy and fit as I can possibly be and inspire others to do the same and most important....never stop believing!

Pressing on

It’s less then 3 weeks until my next Olympic lifting competition. This is the last chance to qualify for the American Open in Ohio. I know I can lift enough to qualify but doing so in competition seems to be a lot harder. The last 2 days of training were really good. Struggling with a few technical issues but those will just take time. Trying to put each part of the lift together at the perfect times seems to be quite difficult but I am going to get it. Just need…more reps, more time, and more determination.  I need to always believe in myself, think positive thoughts even when I miss a lift, and put everything I got into each lift.

Better late then never

This blog is the story of my life. How I made a transformation with my body and mind. How I continue to not fall back into being that unhealthy and unhappy person I used to be. Should of started writing the story a long time ago but when you are at what seems like the lowest point in your life its hard to find motivation for anything.

Today is the day after my 2^nd Olympic Weightlifting Competition. I got another 3^rd place medal. I am trying to be very happy and proud of myself but the way I work is I am never really satisfied. I am trying to change this to a certain extent but still needs work. Part of never being satisfied is a good thing but can also be very negative because then you never tell yourself how great you are.  I have found a passion in weightlifting and want to be the best I can be wherever that takes me. I know when I set my mind to something I can do it. Back in nursing school I was down to almost failing in 2 classes. I had to make greater then a 90% on my last test to pass. Each time I did it. The final semester was the hardest. Gave me my 1^st anxiety attack and made me take anxiety and sleeping pills for 3 weeks to get through the class. The teacher said I couldn’t do it. I proved her wrong. Same goes with weightlifting. I know I can do it. I can be great. I just have to believe in myself. I am not sure why sometimes that seems like the hardest thing to do but most important.

Have you ever been passionate about something that others thought you couldn’t do or told you it was impossible?

Before

After