This blog is the story of my life. How I made a transformation with my body and mind. How I continue to not fall back into being that unhealthy and unhappy person I used to be. Should of started writing the story a long time ago but when you are at what seems like the lowest point in your life its hard to find motivation for anything.
Today is the day after my 2nd Olympic Weightlifting Competition. I got another 3rd place medal. I am trying to be very happy and proud of myself but the way I work is I am never really satisfied. I am trying to change this to a certain extent but still needs work. Part of never being satisfied is a good thing but can also be very negative because then you never tell yourself how great you are. I have found a passion in weightlifting and want to be the best I can be wherever that takes me. I know when I set my mind to something I can do it. Back in nursing school I was down to almost failing in 2 classes. I had to make greater then a 90% on my last test to pass. Each time I did it. The final semester was the hardest. Gave me my 1st anxiety attack and made me take anxiety and sleeping pills for 3 weeks to get through the class. The teacher said I couldn’t do it. I proved her wrong. Same goes with weightlifting. I know I can do it. I can be great. I just have to believe in myself. I am not sure why sometimes that seems like the hardest thing to do but most important.