Saturday, January 15, 2011

Story from the past - Denial!

When I was looking at pictures from when I was heavy. I looked and thought wow I never saw myself like that. My husband looked at the picture and said "where did you find that picture. I never saw you like that".  All this got me thinking. I remembered a time when I went clothes shopping. I tried on an outfit and looked in the mirror. I was like holy cow that is not me. There is something wrong with this mirror. It makes you look so much bigger then what you are. I walked out of that store and didn't buy anything. I even remember telling people how ridiculous it was to have mirrors in the store that make you look bigger because who would want to buy clothes like that. Now that I look back. I couldn't of been in any greater denial. How would I of done something about my weight when I didn't even realize I was heavy. Nobody around me wanted to tell me. Everybody just said you are beautiful just the way you are. That's how we are as a society. Its rude to tell someone they are fat. Now if someone had told me I was fat I would of been like your very rude. So really you can't win. How do you fight denial?  How does someone come to the realization that they need to loose weight and how do you get motivated to do so?

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Education in Progress!

Today I registered for classes for my sports management program at Cal u (California University of Pennsylvania)! Its an online program that prepares you to take the National Academy of Sports Medicine (NASM) certification exam.  When I am done in 2 years I will have my bachelor degree and be a certified trainer. It will be a great addition to my nursing and I am looking forward to being able to help others change their life. I am so excited for the future. A little nervous because I will for sure have my hands full but I know I can do it!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Dariotis Memorial Competition.....1st Weightlifting Meet of 2011

This past Saturday I competed in another weightlifting competition. I have been working extremely hard at my lifts 5 to 6 days a week. I am getting more consistent at the lighter weights. I have been reading up on improving my mental game and what other lifters do. This is the first competition that I feel very proud of myself for. I made improvements in my technique and mental game. Improved my lifting total slightly but trying to remind myself all the time that its not the number that matters right now. Its how I perform. I made 2 out of 3 lifts on the snatch and clean and jerk. I also didn't cry or get upset when I did miss a lift. My previous competition I was so upset and started crying in front of everybody. Kinda embarrassing but I guess these things happen. This competition I listened to music and really didn't even think about being at a competition. Worked wonders for that performance anxiety I get. My goal is to be the best lifter I can be. I am willing to put the time and dedication into this and see where it takes me. I am very happy and having a great time. Looking forward to what the future brings!
Warm up

Warm up
Clean and Jerk Finish

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Welcome 2011!

I haven't been very good at all about writing on my blog. It seems I have so many goals and plans its very difficult to keep up with all of them. But this blog, the story and transformation of my life is so very important to me.  I ultimately have another path of my life I am trying to take. I want to be an athlete and help inspire others to follow there dreams and believe that they too can transform their life and bodies.

My Goals for 2011.....Improve my olympic lifting total and gain consistency, Start my sports management bachelor degree program, Buy a house, Continue to be as healthy and fit as I can possibly be and inspire others to do the same and most important....never stop believing!