Exploring Washington Day #2.........Paradise continued

So yes my mom is ok. This hike, as small as it was tested all of our courage, strength and focus. We had to face our fears. My poor mom has had to deal with me and my husband picking on her for freaking out on the hike. We all had our moments of being scared and I am so proud of my mom for conquering something she was too afraid to do before. We made it through this hike as a team, as a family. It was incredible.

My poor husband had a hole in his shoe and no socks on. Each step in the snow equaled some very cold toes. Once we made it to the top the view didn't exist due to the clouds.When you got to panarama point they had the fanciest bathroom you had ever seen.

Yes I did put up a picture of a toliet. As we started making our way down it started to clear up.

We thought all of our fearful moments were over until we had to cross this ledge....

Now those are people that went after us. Yes they were prepared with poles and seemed to have no fear. We creeped along step by step they kinda did a sprint. One little slip and you would of been sliding down the mountain.

Finally we were home free. Enjoy the magnificent views ahead. Eager to make it to some food and water. Hot chocolate was on my mind. Going downhill has it's own challenges. Each step equals pain in the knees. My body was starting to feel a little older then it is. Of course I am coming up to the 30 mark as far as age goes and yes I know some of you would slap me for saying that.

We did meet some friends along the way. From what I have been told these are called Marmots. Marmots are large ground squirrels as stated in wikipedia. That was really the only animal we saw except for a deer on the drive to paradise.

The beauty out there was like no other. I am originally from Florida which of course has its own beauty but you know when you live somewhere your whole life you are just dying to experience the world. I definitely have. Now I have found my home. Of course I love seeing other places out there traveling and everything but I love it in Washington. There is the ocean and the mountains.

When I look at the pictures I almost have nothing to say. The beauty speaks for itself. Hiking the entire skyline trail brought us to an elevation of 7,100 ft. It was a total of 5.4 miles long that seemed like 20 during the hike.

Finally the paradise visitors center was in site. We were on our way to 3 of the worst and most expensive cups of hot chocolate that tasted like the best thing in the world. After that we went to a little cafe called Cooper Creek Inn restaurant. Famous for its wild blackberry pie. Yes I ate all of it. We almost ate them out of food after hiking with no food at all. We built up an appetite and it was amazing. A little cheat once in a while keeps you sane as long as you know how to get right back on track. I almost forgot the nice sunburn I get to recover from now. Don't underestimate the power of sun and snow together. Oh and the fact that if I didn't have my dark cloths on you wouldn't be able to even see my white self in the snow.

Exploring Washington Day #2.........Paradise

Where do I begin with this extraordinary and adventurous trip I experienced yesterday? Mt. Rainer is the second largest mountain in the united states. We got to experience a place they call paradise and that is sure a great name for it. Seems to fit perfectly. The beauty of it is like places I picture in my dreams.

So originally we were just looking for a few little hikes. We talked to some rangers to get some information. They said there was "a little" snow on the trails. I can laugh about now. Me, my husband and my mother start off hiking on the skyline trail. We thought we would just hike a portion of it but thought about the idea of doing the whole thing. I mean it was only 5 miles......how hard could that be? We made it to myrtle falls which was absolutely gorgeous.

After that we kept hiking and eventually ran into a little bit of snow. My mom and husband got very nervous as we started heading up and they said they wern't going to go. We turned around but very soon a couple of girls walking by my mom and they told her she should really consider because they have hiked it in tennis shoes before. Yes we all had the old tennis shoes on, a little water and no food. About as unprepared as you get. But now we all felt like we could do it. Working our way up the small patch of snow with only a few slips we made it to dry ground again. Enjoying our hike even further until small patches of snow turned into large ones.

I did get to see some beautiful wildflowers along the way. Now that was the reason I wanted to go to the mountain in the first place. My dream of wildflowers. They were not quite as nice yet but still nice enough for me.

During the trip every time we thought about turning back someone would tell us it gets better ahead and so we thought well lets just keep going. Before we knew it.....

Here comes the panic. I look over at my mom and she is frozen in the snow. Not moving anywhere and hyperventilating. I scream "Mom! Are you ok?" She said "No! I can't move!"........

Exploring Washington Day #1

So here it is I figured everybody else has a picture of themselves doing a handstand somewhere so I decided to join the club.  Not bad if I say so myself. Today was supposed to be a trip to the san juan islands but I didn't seem to know what I was looking for when I was researching ferry rides last night. I found a ferry going from seattle but it only had one ride in the morning to the island and one ride back. So today ended up being a drive to Mt. St. Helens and the ocean day. It was a very clear day and perfect for viewing the mountain. Very interesting history about the volcanic eruption. I found out today that anacortes, WA is actually where people leaver to go to the islands. When I was looking at the ferry schedule I had no idea where or what anacortes was. Lesson to be learned. Tomorrow will still be a day for Mt. Rainer. Definitely need to find my field of wild flowers I have been dreaming of.

Not feeling upset about what happened at the competition anymore. Things happen as they are meant to happen. I have also thought about whether I really just want to barely qualify and go to a big competition without even being ready or weather I want to go there ready to make an impression. I think I would rather have people say "hey, where did this girl come from? she is awesome".  When I go I want to go with confidence. That is one thing I remember when I used to compete in tae kwon do. I was very confident and had a great time. I had a great experience being able to go to the Jr. Olympics and compete at the Disney world wide of sports. Now how I got to the point where I put so much pressure on myself I don't know but as you get older the pressure and responsibility increases tremendously. Nursing school was very very hard for me. When it comes to academics I feel like I have to work harder then a lot of people. It takes a lot of repetition to get things to stick. Not sure why that is. When I was a kid I had a lot of seizures. I partially think that affected my memory a bit. But when I set my mind to doing something I make sure I do it. Things didn't get easier once I graduated. Then I realized I had people's lives in my hand everyday. If I did once thing wrong someone could die. If that doesn't put pressure on someone I don't know what will.

I can only imagine that I am all over the place with this post. After such a long day riding in the car I am pretty exhausted. Wanted to write a little something before I drift off into a dream state and enjoy another great day with my family tomorrow. My husband came up with a quote for me today. He said "the only way to make sure you never fall on your face is to make sure you are always sitting on your butt". I guess that is very true. If you never get up and try anything nothing should ever go wrong.

Post Competition

So after all my talk today I had my first experience of what they call a bomb out in olympic weightlifting. This is where you miss all three of your attempts on either the snatch or the clean and jerk which in the end leaves you with no total for the competition.

Today felt quite traumatic for me, only because I made it that way. Just kinda took a mental dumb. Let my thoughts get away from me. I know this started before the competition began even though I felt really good at the beginning. The day before I was having trouble controlling my mind and trying not to think of numbers or other competitors. Mostly I had got myself excited about the fact that I am not far away from qualifying for the american open and nationals. I got so very nervous while waiting for my turn to start lifting. Things just got out of control mentally. Full of negative thoughts about missing the lifts. Then after I started missing I couldn't seem to turn it all around. I felt like I failed. I felt like since I had no total anyway what was the point of even going out there attempting a clean and jerk When it came time for the clean and jerk I felt so drained mentally and physically. The weight felt nothing like what it normally feels. I went out there missed my first clean and jerk, somehow found something inside of me to fight my way to victory with my second clean and jerk and kind of gave up on the third. I felt like the second attempt took everything out of me to get it.

So how do we look at these situations? I looked at it like I failed. What is failure? Well the dictionary states it is the act or instance of proving unsuccessful. Failure can mean difference things. As we fail we learn. We learn what didn't work. You learn how to improve upon yourself and your life. Not one of us is perfect. We will all experience failure if that is what you want to call it many times in our lives. As Winston Churchill says "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts". I have come very far in my life. I have to remember the accomplishments I have made. Three years ago I couldn't even do a pushup and was experiencing a mental breakdown. I couldn't do anything without crying. I couldn't even go to work without losing it. Now I am competing in olympic weightlifting. I feel like I am one of the luckiest and happiest people alive. I am very proud of myself. Tuesday I will go back to the gym and start again. My life is not over because I missed my lifts today even though that is how I acted. When I learn to not put so much weight on the lifts I will be even that much stronger. Each day is a new day.

Tonight I have the worst headache, my body aches, and I feel as drained as can be. Tomorrow starts some road trips with my mom and husband to see some of the sites around washington and enjoy a few days off of work. Time to recover and get things back on track. Right now I am watching the movie called soul surfer about a surfer who lost her arm in a shark attack and survived after she was supposed to be dead and learned how to surf again with one arm. It is inspirational.

Competition Day.....

Today is the day. It is a day to have fun. It is a day to put all my hard work into play and do what I know I can do. It's really just another lifting day. I can't let myself think of numbers, other athletes, or results. What leads you too success is thinking of a perfect lift. One lift at a time. One snatch, one clean and one jerk. Whatever happens I will be happy with my accomplishments.

Weight this morning 149.4lbs after breakfast. Makes me feel good not having to worry about that and now I know I can eat how I normally eat and get a little hydration in. Definitely do better with proper food and hydration.

Now I have drawn a blank on anything else to say. I guess that means it's time end until later. Let the fun begin!

1 day until competition....

"The one thing over which you have absolute control is your own thoughts. It is this that puts you in a position to control your own destiny" 

- Paul G. Thomas

So today I am feeling fantastic. Actually been feeling fantastic almost everyday which I am sure my perfect eating for 3 weeks plays a part in. I am sure my eating plays a part in my mental strength I am experiencing right now. Don't under estimate how proper eating can change your life!

Weight:150lbs
Food Today:
5:30am
Breakfast:  4 eggs fried (sprayed pan with pam), 1 piece wheat toast, mixed fruit, 1 cup coffee w/cream & sugar
9:00am
Snack: greek yogurt (higher protein) w/ blueberries, small cup oatmeal w/sprinkle brown sugar and cream
finished 1 liter water
11:45am
Lunch: 1/2 pork chop, whole wheat pasta w/ marinara (maybe 1/2 cup), mixed fiesta veggies (had some beans in it), 1/4 avacado, 1 tbsp smart butter. 12oz coconut water, 1/2 liter water
2:45pm
Snack: 2 whole wheat crackers w/ little almond butter, couple strawberries and grapes, 12 oz coconut water, finished 1 liter water. 1 cup decaf coffee w/ cream & sugar (had around 2pm)
4:00pm
Pre competition workout (12oz coconut water after workout)
7:30pm
Dinner: Large salad from marlene's salad bar w/ turkey, 1 egg and all the veggies, ginger honey dressing, 17.5oz coconut water.

Now believe it or not I remembered all this. I don't need a food journal anymore. I know exactly what I put in my mouth and when. I could make improvements in what I ate such as more veggies. Salad for dinner makes up for it a bit but I am always trying to tweak my diet to continue to make it better. My plan is to stick with this even after competition because why would I want to change anything and feel bad. If I feel great now I might as well keep it that way.

Tomorrow after work I pick up my mom from the airport. Very excited. I will be off until next Thursday. I have been working really hard so this will be a very nice break and I am very close to my mom. Since I moved all the way across the country from Florida to Washington we don't get to see each other much but we do talk on the phone everyday. Family is so important. Friends always come and go but my family is always there for me no matter what. That includes my husband who has been putting up with me for many years....yes I am not the easiest to live with but we all have our moments good and bad.

On my way home today I knew exactly what I wanted to say but guess what, once I sat down it seems my brain shut off....weird! Ha ha.... not really but anyway I will just start over. I am not worried at all about my competition. I am truly excited, primed, and ready. Sure I still have improvements to make on my lifts but I have been doing really great lately and making a lot of progress. I know all I have to do is go out there and give it everything I got! Be the best I can be! Just let the flow take over.....now I can't make flow happen I just have to let it happen naturally but when it does you feel like you are on top of the world. As stated by an olympic athlete in the book I love so much is "For my best performances, I empty my mind and I feel as though it isn't me performing, but at the same time I feel totally connected with the feelings in my body. Its as if my subconscious is doing the performance. I imagine the perfect movement in my head and the rest follows automatically." This came from the book In Pursuit of Excellence by Terry Orlick, PhD It is about how to win in sport and life through mental training. Second Edition.  I have bought lots of books but this one is by far the best I have come across and will help you with all aspects of your life. Just remember to be all you can be and follow your dreams! It's your life so make sure you live it to the fullest!

"Where the mind goes, everything follows." 

- Unknown

Half asleep

So yes getting to bed way past my bedtime last night like probably after 11pm. I normally try to go to bed around 8 or 9pm and try for my 8 to 9 hours of sleep. Kinda funny how that just worked out....I didn't realize my bedtime and hours of sleep matched up. The sleep doesn't always workout because sometimes I lay in bed hoping to go to sleep, probably thinking of the barbell. Ok not always but it sounded good. I am not that obsessed! Well at least not all the time.

Was very surprised my weight this morning still 149lbs. My weight doesn't usually stay that low for very long but I am not sure I have always been perfect on my diet for very long so we will see how that works out. I am sure I won't be going down a weight class or anything. The lowest I have been is 148lbs at All Star Fitness when I first lost all my weight. It was a fitness competition but I have to say I did starve myself to get to that. It was well worth it to wear the size 4 jeans which I would still fit in if it wasn't for my thighs.

Breakfast consists of 4 eggs mixed with some peppers and collard greens. I know that sounds disgusting but if you just put a few collard greens in and lots of seasoning they are quite as bad. I also have some mixed fruit (strawberries, blueberries, and grapes). I won't have to say what I eat everyday because I pretty much eat the same thing each day. My new naturopath has told me to differentiate so I do try to change the meat from chicken, turkey and fish. On occasion lean red meat. I try to mix up the veggies. On workout day I will have some complex carbs with breakfast, lunch and dinner such as sweet potato, whole wheat pasta, or brown rice. I have my 1 cup of coffee in the morning with cream and sugar. That is my indulgence. I have cut down to just 1 cup per day. If I want more I have decaf or substitute with a herbal non caffeinated tea. I also try to drink 3 to 4 liters of water per day. Rotating between regular water and coconut water. I hate water except evian (which would break the bank if I drank it all the time with that much water), so I have to find ways to make it better. I learned at the spa I go to serenity spa in tacoma that cucumbers in water is very tasty. Gives it a little flavor. I have also tried mint leaves, lemons, and limes or a combination. It has really been helping.

My softball game last night was incredible. No we didn't win but I felt like I was in the zone behind the plate. I felt like not one ball was getting past me. I always get to get ran over by the runners coming in but thanks to being in good shape I haven't gotten hurt. (knock on wood)  Hitting well not as great but hit one really good hit to the outfield and I hit another home run except the bat missed the ball somehow. lol But I sure swung that thing with all my might. So in real life I was out but I sure thought I was going somewhere. Oh well......It was all worth it. I love that feeling of being in the zone. Feeling like you can do anything and nothing is stopping you. No outside thoughts can come in. Yesterday was that kind of day. Now if I could only have those all the time.

Ok so I know I have been talking my head off but really enjoying writing at the moment. Very strange but it might be improving a bit to something people might want to read if not then you shouldn't have gotten this far into reading this post. Better scarf down the rest of my breakfast and get my lunch ready to frantically run out the door for work. At least spa day after work. Every Wednesday is spa day, makes me happy. :)
This picture below minus my little belly hanging out which is why is outfit is not in my wardrobe. I guess weightlifting makes you a little deformed when it comes to thighs. But don't let that stop you strong is the real sexy!!