Sunday, August 28, 2011
Exploring Washington Day #1
Not feeling upset about what happened at the competition anymore. Things happen as they are meant to happen. I have also thought about whether I really just want to barely qualify and go to a big competition without even being ready or weather I want to go there ready to make an impression. I think I would rather have people say "hey, where did this girl come from? she is awesome". When I go I want to go with confidence. That is one thing I remember when I used to compete in tae kwon do. I was very confident and had a great time. I had a great experience being able to go to the Jr. Olympics and compete at the Disney world wide of sports. Now how I got to the point where I put so much pressure on myself I don't know but as you get older the pressure and responsibility increases tremendously. Nursing school was very very hard for me. When it comes to academics I feel like I have to work harder then a lot of people. It takes a lot of repetition to get things to stick. Not sure why that is. When I was a kid I had a lot of seizures. I partially think that affected my memory a bit. But when I set my mind to doing something I make sure I do it. Things didn't get easier once I graduated. Then I realized I had people's lives in my hand everyday. If I did once thing wrong someone could die. If that doesn't put pressure on someone I don't know what will.
I can only imagine that I am all over the place with this post. After such a long day riding in the car I am pretty exhausted. Wanted to write a little something before I drift off into a dream state and enjoy another great day with my family tomorrow. My husband came up with a quote for me today. He said "the only way to make sure you never fall on your face is to make sure you are always sitting on your butt". I guess that is very true. If you never get up and try anything nothing should ever go wrong.